Why am I so terrified to publicly reveal The Number? Why do women not want anyone to know how much they weigh? Why is that number so taboo and scary and shameful?
One part of me wants to be completely transparent and honest about this process because I want my generous sponsors to know exactly what we're up against, and I want them to be able to see my progress in black and white clarity along the way. I also don't want to perpetuate that whole weight-should-be-swept-under-the-rug-and-never-discussed thing. That part of me wants to shout the scary numbers from the rooftops--how liberating would that be, once it's all out in the open?
Another part of me is, well, a more typical chick who wants to keep The Number a quiet mystery. To be perfectly blunt, I simply don't want people to know The Number. I don't even like my doctor knowing The Number. Hell, even I don't want to know The Number! Can't I just keep my head buried in the sand, and can't my sponsors just trust me when I say that I lost x number of pounds at the end of the program?
Here's the cold, hard truth: If I were sponsoring someone in this type of fund-raising program, I would want a fully transparent view of the situation. Wouldn't you?
I think I need to reveal The Number. Once I do that, the rest will be easier. Besides, if all goes well, I'm going to want to shout the "after" number at the top of my lungs anyway. I might as well get the "before" number out of the way now.
Stay tuned while I muster up some courage...